I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say...

I always imagine what i'm going to say to defend myself every time someone confronts me about it. But every time, I just lose my words. I do not have to guts to say what I want to say. I feel too intimidated by her. She always rants about everything she feels, and doesn't give me any space to speak for myself. I am usually too angry to find the words I need. I don't know how to say anything without my voice shaking. And I try not to let her see that my hands are shaking from anger. Then afterwards, I think about all the things that I should have said.

So sick of defending myself for something that I don't even have any control over.