My life is starting to feel more meaningful. Being stuck at home and feeling ill can make you feel pretty useless. First there's music. If i go too long without practicing, I just get bored. Also it's like my therapy. If i'm angry it makes me calm, if i'm upset it makes me happy. If i feel numb, it makes me feel something. If i want a break from my overactive, analytical mind, music gives me that, even just for half an hour.

The other thing that I feel useless if i don't do, is helping people. Even if it's just getting something for an elderly woman in the shop who is too little to reach the shelf, you've done something for someone that will make their day a tiny bit easier. It's easy to get caught up in your own life sometimes, you can forget about other people.