When I feel like this, I wonder how I appear to other people. Do I look as bad as I feel? Is it obvious that I'm about to fall? Can they all tell that I'm disappearing, turning into nothing?
I can hardly remember a conversation I had five minutes ago. I think I know what it feels like to be Alice in wonderland. Nothing makes sense, the world doesn't quite fit. People stare at me, probably because I can't walk in a straight line and sometimes I fall, but no one tries to help me.
A walk that is meant to take twenty minutes takes me 45 minutes because I feel so weak, so I have to keep stopping. I try not to think about the coursework I haven't done yet, because I can't deal with the stress right now. I wonder how I am going to do this for another two years. But somehow, I manage to. Somehow. I am proud of myself.
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