Post Diagnosis

This is what has happened since my diagnosis. So far i haven't had the happy ending that i was hoping for.

I guess really, it was unrealistic for me to think that once i got my diagnosis, everything would be okay. I assumed that i could just take medication, and then i would be fine again. I let my hopes get too high.

The day i got diagnosed, i can't explain how i felt. I was overwhelmed, but in a good way. I felt like crying. I could let go of all of these crazy emotions i had held onto throughout the years i was waiting for the diagnosis i needed.

I didn't know my body was so sensitive to medication. Over the last four months, i have been trying different medications, all of which my body has hated. I have tried three times, but reacted worse with each one i took. Between medication one and two, i had an MAV relapse.

It was caused by myself. I wasn't listening to my body. I pushed myself too hard, staying up too late and trying to get all of my college work done. I was also cheating the MAV diet because i was stressed. Sometimes, i lose control. I was stressed and took it out on my body.

This was about two months ago, and i still haven't recovered from my relapse. On top of that, i had the worst reaction to medication that i have ever had before. This was only a few weeks ago...

I started falling over a lot, but at first i just laughed it off and ignored it. But then on day, my knees gave way and i couldn't walk again. For the next five days, i couldn't walk at all. I went to the doctors a couple of times and then the hospital. They didn't understand why, because there was nothing physically wrong with my legs.

I couldn't believe that medication, something that was supposed to help me, could hurt me so much. I am still not walking normally, sometimes my legs are still very weak and i need to hold on to people when i am walking at times, but they are slowly getting better.

I felt very ill and weak. Luckily now, i have almost completely recovered from the whole leg thing, but i haven't recovered yet from my last relapse. But it's been a stressful few months. I honestly thought i would be okay by now.