I stare at the wall knowing on the other side, the storm that waits for me

"Staying in the position of a victim, as a woman, does you no good at all."

This is a Tori Amos quote that I have never forgotten. For years, I was trapped in the position of a victim and I worked so hard to get out of it. Hearing her say this is what prompted me to do something; it made me realise I needed to try and help myself, instead of remaining a victim, waiting for someone else to pull me out.

It was a difficult process, but It worked. I wasn't a victim anymore, I was strong. But it's quite difficult to stay here now, I often find myself slipping back into the position of a victim. It's the last place I want to be. When I feel it happening again, I think about what Tori said, and it helps me push myself back to where I should be, but sometimes it's difficult to find the strength. I have to try so hard because I don't want to forget everything I have learnt. I don't want to be weak again.