Am I lost or just less found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?

Some days I feel alive and energetic, and I just want to do is run and laugh and dance because I can. Other times I feel quite incapable, and even the most simple thing can feel impossible. But then I can't sleep and my thoughts are racing, faster and faster. Sometimes my mind seems too slow instead, and everything seems to take forever. I feel strong and active, But at any moment my heart could start slowing down, until I am too weak to care whether it stops completely. Some days I feel so happy and positive, but others I am sad, and it gets harder to think positively. Some days I am almost too happy, and it overwhelms me. Other times, I feel like I could sleep forever.

I am rarely balanced these days. I jump between these feelings, with little control, and I'm never 'in the middle' for long enough. With me, everything I feel is quite extreme, and I can't decide if that is a good or a bad thing.