I want you to understand how I might be confused right after being used but still, you're here in spite when I close my eyes to dream at night

Anger. This is an emotion that I'm not too good at dealing with. When I am angry I try to convert it into pain because then I can do something with it; I can cry, and it helps me feel better. Anger just wells up inside me and it makes me bitter. I hate being bitter. I'm an awful person when I'm angry.