Today I felt amazing.
I was sitting in sociology, when I realised that something felt different. I actually felt normal. I felt right. Everything felt real. I felt like I was truly existing, not drifting away somewhere like I often feel. My mind felt like part of my body, and my body felt like part of the world again. I honestly felt like that was the first time in about a year i've actually felt 'normal'. Even though later the feeling disappeared and I started feeling foggy again, it made me very happy. It was nice to feel like I used to again, even just for a few hours :)
Sure--normal is good at times, but nothing beats the thrill of being something more than or different from normal. ;)
ReplyDeleteThat's actually amazing... No one has ever said anything like that to me before and it's good to see it from that point of view =]
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you got a glimpse of normality-even if very brief.
ReplyDeleteI Haven't caught up on your previous posts lately (Sorry-packing/moving & 2 kids running me in circles!) but have you found another Dr yet or are you leaving things be for now?
Have you or are you on the MAV forums? I'm only a reader-not a member, but they have a lot of info/support to offer. I can send you the link if you like.
Look after yourself xo