Strength

This is how I know I am getting stronger...

It all becomes too much, and I'm deeply tired, and I feel so weak, dizzy and sick. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.

But instead, I whisper to myself "everything is going to be okay", over and over. There is no one else to say it to me, so I say it to myself. And I pick up my violin and I play some soulful, lively celtic music, that reflects exactly how I want to feel. And just for a moment, I feel truly at peace. I feel like the music. That's how I know that everything is going to be okay.

Afterwards, I look in the mirror and tell myself "everything is going to be okay" again. I keep telling myself.