Belonging

Sometimes it's like the world is too much for my body. It makes me feel weak, nauseas, and and my body starts shaking. I have to sit down before I fall. I feel like I am so light that any second, I could just slip away into the air around me and drift away somewhere.

I don't really want to drift away anywhere... I'd be quite happy to stay but there's something inside me that doesn't fit here. It can hear too clearly, see too visibly, smell too strongly and feel too deeply. When this happens all I want to do is go and lie down in a dark, quiet room and just stay there until I feel like I belong in this world again.

But I like it here, body. I want to stay, even if you don't.