"...But she couldn't keep baby alive. Doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere..."

Seeing something differently to how it really is. Knowing that what you are thinking is not quite true, it isn't fair. But no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to change the way you look at it.

The way a situation that was completely not your fault, has made you feel so overwhelmed with guilt that you just can't think clearly, you can't feel comfortable in your own body anymore.