Yesterday, everything was spinning more than usual. I also felt more sick, but drank about 3 bottles of water and attempted to distract myself with french grammar. I got home, but had to go back to college an hour later to perform in a concert, which i really wasn't in the mood for. It was okay though... And i was in the first half so i could go home and go to sleep after i performed.

It took me a while to get to sleep because i felt so dizzy and sick. It's always worse in the dark. I used to get really frustrated when this happened. The best thing to do though, is just relax and be patient. Sleep always comes, it just takes a while sometimes.

I'm not at college today, because when i woke up i just knew it was going to be one of those days. I don't like being stuck at home, but i know it's the best thing sometimes because there is really no point going to college if i'm just gunna be stuck in the medical room.

Sometimes, it all gets too much and you just want to lie in bed and cry all day. That's okay, because when your dealing with something like this there's always going to be days when you feel like it's all too much. I don't allow myself to wallow in self pity for long, though. I will stay positive. I know i am so much luckier than some people.

I don't take my life for granted anymore.

And this morning, i played my violin for about an hour. That always makes me feel better emotionally. Nothing makes the dizziness go away, but if there's one thing that helps cheer me up and distract me from how i am feeling, it's my violin. Also my cello :)

I'll try and get some coursework done later, but i'm finding it difficult to concentrate feeling like this. I also have got to follow the MAV diet, which i am being stricter with today. The more i eat, the worse i feel.

I'm going in search of some decent, MAV suitable food to eat now. Next time, i'll going to talk about what has happened since i got my diagnosis in November.