You're a genius, no you're a fool. You don't know just where you're going girl

I think I have been back at college about two weeks. When I first go back, I usually feel really good for a few days before this disorder comes crashing back into my life. This time, for about a week and a half I felt good. Although I was dizzy I felt much stronger and I had more energy. All it takes is one little thing to trigger a relapse, and I never know when it is going to happen or what it is going to be. This time, It was being driven through Basingstoke in the dark. By the end of it I felt really sick and dizzy, and It just didn't go away. I lay in bed that night watching my room spin, and when I woke up it was still spinning, and I knew how hard it was going to be so I just went back to sleep.

I started feeling better during the day, so I thought I was going to go to college today. But last night was awful. I fainted and nearly threw up, and once again lay in bed watching the room spin. It took a while for sleep to come. And when I woke up nothing had changed, and it seems like I've just got worse during the day.

And watching my friends going to university is harder than I thought it was going to be. I am very happy for them all but it's sad, and the combination of feeling like shit and them leaving is a bit depressing.