Take a look at my body, look at my hands, there's so much here that I don't understand

Most of the time, I feel strong enough to deal with things independently. But sometimes, I feel like I really need someone. The problem is, I never know who to turn to anymore. It's strange how quickly things can change with me. Two weeks ago today, I felt amazing, but for the last week or so I have felt so weak, and vulnerable, and sick. I rely on Prochlorperazine, Betahistine Hydrochloride, Amitriptyline, Ibuprofen and caffeine to get me through these days, and they make me feel quite drugged up and numb, but I need something.

But it won't last forever... I know that I am the only person who can get myself out of this depressive, numb shell that is surrounding me. This happens to me sometimes, but I always find the strength to get myself 'better', I just need some time, and maybe a hug.