'Cause you've got me on your shelf and I just sit here, thinking about when everything was right

I am lost. Some days I am more lost than others. Last night I was very lost, and this morning when I woke up, I was still lost.

This is what dissociation does. It takes a part of your mind away, and it hides it. It's difficult to find. It feels like the hardest thing in the world to bring your mind back to your body, and sometimes I think it would be easier not to... I would just carry on drifting, until I am lost completely.

Dissociation makes you feel numb. It's like you are never truly here when you are dissociated. You feel like a ghost. That's what I mean when I say I am lost.

Dizziness is horrible, but at least you feel alive when the world is spinning. Dissociation makes you feel like you are disappearing, fading into nothing. Sometimes this is a relief, and other times I want nothing more than to make it go away.