Then Alison whispers "remember, change waltzes in with her sister Pain, waiting for you to send her away"

Sometimes you do not notice something is happening until the transition is complete, and suddenly you find yourself somewhere completely different to where you thought you were, wondering how the hell you got there.

Over the last few years, I have been continually changing, so much that I'm almost a completely different person to who I was before. But I don't see this as a bad thing; I have become who I need to be in order to survive. Sometimes, I see myself as I am now, and look back at how I was before, and I wonder how such a big transformation took place without me even noticing it.

Before, I didn't really need to worry about how I was feeling. The last few years my thoughts have become more self-absorbed, and I am constantly thinking about, and analysing how I am feeling. Something has changed though, another transition is happening. I'm getting stronger, and I'm empowering myself more and more, proving to myself that I can cope with all of this. I think i'm ready to start thinking more about what I'm doing, instead of what I am feeling.