This morning I woke up feeling considerably better than I did yesterday. I did 20 minutes of yoga, had breakfast, fed next doors cat and revised psychology for a couple of hours. Then I had a bath, had lunch, and procrastinated for a few hours. Then I thought about my exams and panicked, and revised until dinner.
It's difficult though; I'm pushing myself really hard just to do the things I need to do to get through the next few months, but it feels like it's going on forever. I'm already worrying about my cello exam and it's not until July, and I'm starting to regret taking it this term when I have all my other exams to think of. Maybe once these exams are over it will feel less daunting and I will have the strength and energy I need to push myself through it, and do more than just scrape a pass ;)
Physically I feel weak, but emotionally I feel strong... And the stronger I act, the stronger I feel. I just feel really calm, and for the first time in a long time, when I tell myself that everything is going to be okay, I actually believe me.
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