No use to fly away to my yesterday of freedom

For most of last week I was in quite a bad mood. On tuesday I went to my Dad's french class with him and spent the whole time wishing I hadn't because I felt so sick. On wednesday I still felt sick and thursday was a disaster, as thursdays usually are. I've decided to stop coming in for my first lesson on a thursday because I always go home feeling really dizzy, weak and unhappy, and to be honest I feel like I can't put myself through that anymore. From now on, I am making it easier for myself. I spent a lot of last week feeling sick, although some of that was my fault. On friday night I went to a party and drank quite a lot more than I planned, then regretted it later on because I felt too drunk. The next morning I was sick but felt okay apart from that. I'm probably going to avoid alcohol for a while though. I'm only writing this because I am procrastinating. I should be doing my coursework, but I feel too restless. When the evenings start getting lighter I never want to stay at home, I want to be walking somewhere beautiful. I find myself spending a lot of time staring out of the window.