Today

I decided not to waste five hours at college writing my personal statement and applying to university if i'm staying an extra year at college and don't even need to apply 'til next year. Instead, I met Holly and Sarah in the cafe and had one of those beautiful lattes. Then I went to the library and bought a magazine for 20p. I went for a long walk through all these fields and footpaths. It was so quiet and pretty but none of it felt real. I think my cognitive symptoms are getting worse. This happens every year. It's starting to turn into a viscious circle.
I saw a horse, and we stopped and stared at each other for a while. I wondered if it knew what I was thinking. I kept on walking, and found a dog by the stables. It walked up with me, and sat down with me for a while. It looked quite sad, especially when I got up to leave. Later I saw an old man walking his dog, and we talked for a while. When I came home, I fnished my book. I ate too much, and tried to add more to my portfolio. Lewis is coming here in a minute and we're going to watch a film. I really need some motivation to do my health and social care if I want to get an A.