Look down, the ground below is crumbling
Look up, the stars are all exploding
I have realised that the worst part of it all is the loss of control. Although emotionally, i am in a much better place than i was, there are times when it still all gets too much for me. I don't know. I asked on the forum how to regain the control that you lose through illness... And they helped me realise that i need to take it slowly, one day at a time, and be proud of the little things that i achieve. I know that i can't do as much as i would like to. I've accepted that. I just have to push myself, but not so hard that i get even worse again. Maybe i have more control than i thought. MAV hasn't broken me yet, even when i was sure that it would. :)
But i don't know... I can't help feeling a bit down tonight.
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