Exams are finally over and I'm back at college. I have one more month of lessons and then that's it until september. I'm only doing two lessons at the moment - sociology and psychology. In september I'm doing AS french again, because I miss it much more than I thought I would. This time next year, as soon as my exams are finished I will go to Paris and stay for the summer, then come back and (hopefully) go to University to finally train as an occupational therapist :) I'm just going to try and make the most out of this year. A year isn't much.
The last few days I have felt okay. I feel like this is how I am supposed to feel. Life is so, so much easier when I feel good. I appreciate these days so much, because I know that within a day, a week, a month, I could be feeling like shit again.
I can't allow myself to hope that it won't come back, because that makes it too depressing when it does. Although some days, I let myself dream about a life completely free of MAV. This is when I realise how much I would value that, how appreciatative I would be of a life without my symptoms. I could cry just thinking about how much I want that; I want it so much that I can't think about it.
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